If you read my old articles, you’re loyal
I wrote so many articles on Medium between 2018–2019. I don’t think they matter as much because majority of them are lost in translation, from time to time I get notifications of people still highlighting phrases from them. Most of the articles weren’t well crafted at all, I didn’t really interact with the readers, and many were rushed. I was trying to make a large income off of my Medium articles so I bullshitted just to try my hardest to be published. However, I don’t use Medium the way I use to.
Now, when I turn to Medium I find that it’s to document my journey as a writer. Let’s be honest, no great writer was built overnight and it takes centuries before their work is even really acknoweldged. I’ve grown a lot as a professional and I’m here to tell you from experience — authenticity does, in fact, sell.
Adults want to read the true nature of who you are, in that time period of my life I was nothing more than a recent college graduate that was concerned about every dollar of the day. I wanted quick coins so I tried to publish quick articles — even running my own column (that was a failure.) Today, I take my time with everything.
You can’t pay me to rush the work of my craft. This weekend alone I edited over 4,000 words in Sandy by simply cooking, cleaning, and sleeping in between time. I use to try to binge edit, binge write, and even force myself to get through the work in one sitting. It was hell for my characters and my work was never fresh. Now, I take my sweet ass time and I find the quality is so much better.
And, adulting sucks. While I work at a doctor’s office as a scheduler — awaiting for my first M.A. in Teaching class in January — I feel like I’m more excited to get off than to clock in. My work is easy, but I’m always so anxious to return back to my business (BLCK) and finish up a novel. I can’t wait for Class of 2045 to come out, it’s been some time since I’ve published something seriously. I use to rush that too, “oh, I just published a novel,” when I was still unsatisfied with the quality. This book though, I think it may end up on shelves.
Somehow, even with all of my fuckery in the old articles I still have all of you awaiting my fingers to hit the keys. I get so many notifications about new followers, highlights, and even shares. I had no clue people did like my old articles as much, but I’m here to say my writing on this platform is not the same. In fact, my Medium, now, is more like a journal.